Honesty with myself (and apparently the world)

So, here is the thing. I'm going to list the things I want to admit to myself. These are things that I think in my head, but am honestly scared to accept. This is sort of a, middle of the year resolution.

So here goes...
1. I honestly think I am an emotional eater. I joke about it with my friends to make myself feel like it's ok that I do it. And sometimes I make them do it with me. I am probably 20lbs overweight. So what I want to do to change this is try and seek out a dietitian. I am sick of "diets" and "being healthy" I want to know what the smart choices FOR ME are, not what the commercials on TV say are healthy. I am going to start going to the gym more often than 2 or 3 times a week. And, I'm not going to drink as much. I know that I'm young and should be enjoying life, but I think I can enjoy life and be healthy.

2. I want to be that girl that goes to the gym everyday, eats organic food, and doesn't like to drink. But (as the moment) I am none of those things. And even more, I want to be them because I know it will bring Jake and I even closer together than we already are. I want to be healthy for me and for him. I don't want to be the girlfriend he is with for 6 years and then gets fat and comfortable. I want to be hot and sexy all the time. So I am going to do what I said in numer 1.

3. I want to learn how to save money. I don't want to end up like the rest of the country with no money saved and nothing to show for the 40+ hours a week we put into working some dead-end job we don't even like anymore. I am actually already doing this. Sort of...inadvertantly saving money from myself. (go me!)

4. I want to understand what my beliefs are. Is God real or not? How will I ever know? Hm... this is a tough one.

5. What is my dream job and how do I get it? FIGURE THIS OUT.

6. What is really important to me right now? I want to graduate college and start my life, somewhere with Jake. Whatever that entails will be a suprise and that's kind of exciting. Also, learning to connect with my family again. I feel like we have all kind of lost site of one another. It's a strange feeling, to be so disconnected with someone who you love so much.

That's all I can really think of for now. I suppose if I think of more I will update....