Honesty with myself (and apparently the world)

So, here is the thing. I'm going to list the things I want to admit to myself. These are things that I think in my head, but am honestly scared to accept. This is sort of a, middle of the year resolution.

So here goes...
1. I honestly think I am an emotional eater. I joke about it with my friends to make myself feel like it's ok that I do it. And sometimes I make them do it with me. I am probably 20lbs overweight. So what I want to do to change this is try and seek out a dietitian. I am sick of "diets" and "being healthy" I want to know what the smart choices FOR ME are, not what the commercials on TV say are healthy. I am going to start going to the gym more often than 2 or 3 times a week. And, I'm not going to drink as much. I know that I'm young and should be enjoying life, but I think I can enjoy life and be healthy.

2. I want to be that girl that goes to the gym everyday, eats organic food, and doesn't like to drink. But (as the moment) I am none of those things. And even more, I want to be them because I know it will bring Jake and I even closer together than we already are. I want to be healthy for me and for him. I don't want to be the girlfriend he is with for 6 years and then gets fat and comfortable. I want to be hot and sexy all the time. So I am going to do what I said in numer 1.

3. I want to learn how to save money. I don't want to end up like the rest of the country with no money saved and nothing to show for the 40+ hours a week we put into working some dead-end job we don't even like anymore. I am actually already doing this. Sort of...inadvertantly saving money from myself. (go me!)

4. I want to understand what my beliefs are. Is God real or not? How will I ever know? Hm... this is a tough one.

5. What is my dream job and how do I get it? FIGURE THIS OUT.

6. What is really important to me right now? I want to graduate college and start my life, somewhere with Jake. Whatever that entails will be a suprise and that's kind of exciting. Also, learning to connect with my family again. I feel like we have all kind of lost site of one another. It's a strange feeling, to be so disconnected with someone who you love so much.

That's all I can really think of for now. I suppose if I think of more I will update....

What week is it...

So last time I wrote I titled it "Week 1" well, i don't remember how long exactly is has been (although I could probably just look), it is a sign that my summer life has begun to speed up. I worked almost 40 hours this week so hopefully my paycheck will be big and fat so I can pay to get my brand new car fixed.

My Car:

About a week ago I was innocently strolling out to my car at 5:15am to drive to work. I am walking down my drive way just minding my own business when I look down and see that the chicken wire that surrounds my vegetable garden is bent over as if someone had fallen on it. I questioned the scene but didn't think twice because of the crazy events that normally take place at my house, something like this could easily happen on accident. So I fix the fence and continue onto my car. I begin to dig into my bottomless purse for my keys and as I arrive at my car door I reach for the door handle of the driver side of my car... I'm grabbing...and grabbing. And... "WTF where is my door handle!?~?~?~" This is when I realize that the chicken wire on the fence had been fallen on because someone was trying to break into my car and pulled so hard that the RIPPED the door handle off my car and fell onto the fence. So... $150 later I will eventually have a new door handle. This is my life....

Work:

I CAN'T WAIT TO GET A REAL JOB AND QUIT STARBUCKS.

Enough said.

Friends:

Today I went and helped Nikki pick out a wedding cake, got fitted for my bride's maid dress, went over bridal shower plans with Pam, went to lunch with Nik and Heather, moved Jax into her new apartment, went to dinner with Jax and her mom at Bostons, chatted a bit, and now here I am in bed typing this post.

Discovery of the day: People cover their toasters... the reason is beyond me.

Question of the day: Why don't people just do what they know is right?

Something I REALLY WANT: warm weather

good night and good luck.